The pursuit of stress

it really breaks your heart when you put so much so much of effort in something, you still fail. fail to the point that you feel like whatever you did and your effort seems so...meaningless now. and especially when a single piece of paper could potentially pull down the years of hard work. i just want to leave this place asap.

anyway, my life is determine by me. not u you stupid mt. for the first time, i don't wan't to care anymore. i'm throwing all the notes into the recycle bin downstair. goodbye.

anyway an interesting exchange student sat beside me in lab for the paper..i heard him snorted and laugh at the "which part of the body do you think the symptoms of n.gonorrhea (an std) will occur in heterosexual males?" i'm am pretty sure he wrote something like "your dXXX" to mt. and i think he drew something also. wth. and he laugh again. then he left one hour earlier. man, how i wish i could s/u and xiao zhang like him....