lets sip away 2008...

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

so its the last day of 2008. finally the end of a..
hmm how should i put it? an OK year for me,
well not as blast and rocking as 2007, but still OK.
i had a lot of emotions in 08, but i knew i gotta stay strong
and shut out all those words by some insignificant people
ohh i just hate em. i hope i won't encounter anymore of it this year.
yes, new year new resolutions. i don't even remember my 08 resolutions..
ha..so this time i'm gonna write it down.
exchange it with li ren, and both of us will "guard" each resolutions..
most importantly, making sure we stick to em!

but i'm pretty sure 09 will be a year with many changes in my life.
graduation first. oh, i long for that robe. i can't wait to graduate.
really. i just want to end my undergrad studies asap. esp in nus.
sorry but i won't miss the LTs, the tutorial room and the lecturer.
maybe i will miss my lab, cuz it's like a second home..
but it really depends on whether i will stay..

then it's the turning point of my life from undergrad to what..
a working class adult/graduate student/unemployed?
oh whatever..i just want to do the things i loved.

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so, i have been doin a lot lately.
from the christmas dinner at lionel's place
which is really good although i don't
dig the log cake, as the chocolate is too unbearable
a trip to ipoh for some hor fun
and play time with jesse
to watching some man-ly movies..yes man and ip man..
surprisingly, it was quite good for both movies.
and i still wanna watch twilight.
i've read the book..but i know it's gonna be as disappointed
as harry potter adaptation
cuz no movie can be a perfect adaption from a novel
not even the LOTR, because a lot will be cut off..
but still! I wanna watch it. well..cuz
the guy who acted as cedric in the goblet of fire is in it.
yes, he is playing edward cullen.
oh boy, he has became more and more..
drooling. sigh....what a beautiful face.
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HAVE A ROCKING NEW YEAR GUYS!!
"Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la"
may Jason Mraz quote be an inspiration =)

Thursday, December 25, 2008


my friends and love and sista
my wish for you..
is that life becomes all you that you want it to
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
you never need to carry more than you can hold

may God's grace be with you.

Monday, December 22, 2008

there goes my weekend in lab. with the rats. but. i don't really care, do i?
it's a frustration, i know. when you keep on repeating the same experiment
it's like wearing the same clothes and eating the same food almost every day.
the only thing that's keeping me sane in lab is my mp3 and facebook. tee hee.
and when it's end of the month, you get a new sets of task. well, it's really not that bad.
keep on convincing myself that it's really really not that bad.
perseverance? maybe. a self-fulfilling prophecy? probably.

sigh. i just want to enjoy the christmas. and the holidays..
still in the mood until today when boss said..
"regina, i think you can start on your thesis.. you've done a lot.."
gulp. OK, i should start..which i know would be more hair loss.=$

and baby i know you're reading this..

"if you like it then you should have put a ring on it"
yes the one that i saw.

i really don't mind for another turquoise box with white ribbon =)
*gan-chan chou sing sing laugh ngek ngek ngek*
bless you my love.

Friday, December 19, 2008

so christmas is around the corner...
and i don't feel any jingle bells at all.
maybe is the recession.
well, i hope it will go away quickly to
ease the financial crap that everyone is facing.

for this christmas, we will be celebrating in lionel's place.
cuz my parents ain't into the whole christmas thing.
on the list are roast turkey and log cake, etc.
and red wine of cuz!
a nice warm dinner with good friends.
minus the fireplace.
let's hope next year me and li ren will go somewhere snowy..=)

had a nice dinner outing with my fellow OG members from 2005.
wah, time really flies...and each of us has grown up into
individuals with greater responsibilites on our shoulder.
i guess that's part of growing up.

in 2005 when we're still "kids"

3 years later..

well, i think everyone still looks the same..hmm except maybe for suwen!
haha..yeah +)
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"happy holidays!"

Monday, December 8, 2008

i woke up with a cold breeze over my head today.
finally it rained, in the morning.
and yet i still need to go to lab.
despite of hari raya haji.
where i should be at home eating rendang.
life.
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i have downloaded several application forms.
from several companies and institutions.
it's time to re-organize my resume.
and type out that CV.
this time round i'm just going to through my nets
into the ocean and see what i got......
but right now, i gotta start typing on my thesis.
this is so sick, i knew it would come. =(
but thinking of the freedom 5 months later
i'm ever so motivated.
and the graduation trip, i am ever ever so motivated.
but right now, my life revolves around lab,
thesis, my novels and good food. =)
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"...what would you like for christmas, dee?"
"I just want you to be happy, happy and happy always."

light on

Sunday, December 7, 2008

it's sunday morning. bright and sunny.
quiet. peaceful. and yet..
i still need to go back to lab later.
how sweet..
so what have i done for the past post-exam session?
spending money of cuz. yeah at this point of recession.
i have no guilt. what a sin. my bad.
i bought a pair of bejeweled heels for Christmas dinner
a black throw over
a nice checkered top
a cute 2009 planner
kim edwards book =0)
and more to come since cny is coming soon. ngek.
anyways, i have a rocking good time.
with body of lies which is awesome.
with friends, my sister who came over and the boyfriend.
cheerio sista.
but suddenly the mood swing came in.
the deja vu of falling down and down..and making
the wrong decision and wrong choices
i don't know. i should just be at this moment now.
and not think too much about the future.
whatever will be will be.
will talk to boss before the dawn of 09.
*fingers-crossed*

gosh. my hair. i looked aged.. i have longed for a new hair cut.
getting back my bangs i had in form 6! arggh i should wear back my contacts.


Me Oh

Thursday, November 27, 2008

my mind is so exhausted..still trying to stay focus.
on tumor biology. and deep down inside me
i knew it. i just knew it.
that's it, the end of my journey, doesn't
seem very much rosy daisy at all.

but is ok, right? or is it not?
i don't know. i just want to be happy.

i'm re-discovering my passion and talent.
according to the book, it's something you can do
CONSISTENTLY well and you find yourself
looking forward to it every single day...
wow, it's like su yin waking up every day
doing the things she love most, baking and cooking
and making them into an art, is already an achievement.
(http://cookingismypassion.blogspot.com/)
hmmm so what am i good at?
beside eating, sleeping and watching movie?
study is not good, needless to say, No passionate at all.
what else? maybe i should learn something new.
or write a book, a journal, learn latte art..?
i don't know. i just want to stay away from
stupid exams that require me to memorize
all the stupid enzymes and metabolites.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

it's pretty boring when your life revolves around pharmacogenetics..
cells..crap toxicant lists..sigh my memory is deteriorating as time goes by..
just to pass my time,
i went to check out apple trailer on the latest movies..
surprisingly most of the movie title seems so familiar..
cuz it's all from an adaptation from the books that've read.
-angels and demons
-marley and me
-the confession of a shopaholic (finally!!! this is going to be good! i knew my sister read this twice)
-the lovely bones (my all time fav. i actually cried..reading this..
it's going to be directed by peter jackson, so i expect something really really deep)

yes, i miss reading. USED to be an avid reader,
but since i came to uni, i have stop reading.
maybe it's an excuse, but it's something i would
certainly not give up in the future.

arggh back to work..my brain is so heavy..

Thursday, November 13, 2008

i don't know how to comprehend the situation right now
but when i got the news, it's heart breaking.
although i'm not very close to to my uncle,
i still fell sorry and sad and just saaadd
for my aunt and my cousins.
i'm just hoping for a miracle to happen.

i feel life as fragile as it may seems..
the journey towards the end is a tough one.
i hope in this life, my uncle had been happy.
had great memories with his loved ones,
surrounded by his loved ones.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed.



YES we can!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I just wanna put this up for my own, and for others to read, to remember the man that inspires and built the hopes and dreams of people in America. Sometimes one need to take a step back to look at the big picture he's telling us, it's not just about politics, it's about making a change in the society so pre-disposed to a confined mindset that is so sickening that it makes you wanna puke...like in malaysia and singapore.. i don't want to comment about that because it is meaningless as i'm not very proud of the leaders. it probably gonna take like 100 years to make a change here if the society (and sadly even your family members) measure you by the amount of money you earn, your status quo and your skin colour.

Transcript of Sen. (shld be President-elect by now) Barack Obama's remarks after he won the Democratic presidential primary in South Carolina.

Well, tonight, the cynics who believed that what began in the snows of Iowa was just an illusion were told a different story by the good people of South Carolina.

After four -- after four great contests, in every corner of this country, we have the most votes, the most delegates, and the most diverse coalition of Americans that we've seen in a long, long time.

You can see it in the faces here tonight. There are young and old, rich and poor. They are black and white, Latino and Asian and Native American.

They are Democrats from Des Moines and independents from Concord and, yes, some Republicans from rural Nevada. And we've got young people all across this country who have never had a reason to participate until now.

And in nine days, in nine short days, nearly half the nation will have the chance to join us in saying that we are tired of business as usual in Washington. We are hungry for change and we are ready to believe again.

But if there's anything, though, that we have been reminded of since Iowa, it's that the kind of change we seek will not come easy, partly because we have fine candidates in this race, fierce competitors who are worthy of our respect and our admiration.

And as contentious as this campaign may get, we have to remember that this is a contest for the Democratic nomination. And that all of us share an abiding desire to end the disastrous policies of the current administration.

But there are real differences between the candidates. We are looking for more than just a change of party in the White House. We're looking to fundamentally change the status quo in Washington.

It's a status quo that extends beyond any particular party and right now that status quo is fighting back with everything it's got, with the same old tactics that divide and distract us from solving the problems people face, whether those problems are health care that folks can't afford or a mortgage they cannot pay.

So this will not be easy. Make no mistake about what we're up against. We're up against the belief that it's all right for lobbyists to dominate our government, that they are just part of the system in Washington.

But we know that the undue influence of lobbyists is part of the problem and this election is our chance to say that we are not going to let them stand in our way anymore.

We're up against the conventional thinking that says your ability to lead as president comes from longevity in Washington or proximity to the White House. But we know that real leadership is about candor and judgment and the ability to rally Americans from all walks of life around a common purpose, a higher purpose.

We're up against decades of bitter partisanship that cause politicians to demonize their opponents instead of coming together to make college affordable or energy cleaner. It's the kind of partisanship where you're not even allowed to say that a Republican had an idea, even if it's one you never agreed with.

That's the kind of politics that is bad for our party, it is bad for our country, and this is our chance to end it once and for all.

We're up against the idea that it's acceptable to say anything and do anything to win an election. But we know that this is exactly what's wrong with our politics. This is why people don't believe what their leaders say anymore. This is why they tune out. And this election is our chance to give the American people a reason to believe again.

But let me say this, South Carolina. What we've seen in these last weeks is that we're also up against forces that are not the fault of any one campaign, but feed the habits that prevent us from being who we want to be as a nation.

It's the politics that uses religion as a wedge and patriotism as a bludgeon, a politics that tells us that we have to think, act and even vote within the confines of the categories that supposedly define us, the assumption that young people are apathetic, the assumption that Republicans won't cross over, the assumption that the wealthy care nothing for the poor and that the poor don't vote, the assumption that African-Americans can't support the white candidate, whites can't support the African-American candidate, blacks and Latinos cannot come together.

We are here tonight to say that that is not the America we believe in.

I did not travel around this state over the last year and see a white South Carolina or a black South Carolina. I saw South Carolina.

I saw crumbling schools that are stealing the future of black children and white children alike. I saw shuttered mills and homes for sale that once belonged to Americans from all walks of life and men and women of every color and creed who serve together and fight together and bleed together under the same proud flag.

I saw what America is and I believe in what this country can be. That is the country I see. That is the country you see. But now it is up to us to help the entire nation embrace this vision.

Because in the end, we're not just against the ingrained and destructive habits of Washington, we're also struggling with our own doubts, our own fears, our own cynicism.

The change we seek has always required great struggle and great sacrifice. And so this is a battle in our own hearts and minds about what kind of country we want and how hard we're willing to work for it.

So let me remind you tonight that change will not be easy. Change will take time. There will be setbacks and false starts and sometimes we'll make mistakes.

But as hard as it may seem, we cannot lose hope, because there are people all across this great nation who are counting on us, who can't afford another four years without health care, that can't afford another four years without good schools, that can't afford another four years without decent wages because our leaders couldn't come together and get it done.

Theirs are the stories and voices we carry on from South Carolina. The mother who can't get Medicaid to cover all the needs of her sick child. She needs us to pass a health care plan that cuts costs and makes health care available and affordable for every single American. That's what she's looking for.

The teacher who works another shift at Dunkin' Donuts after school just to make ends meet, she needs us to reform our education system so that she gets better pay and more support and her students get the resources that they need to achieve their dreams.

The Maytag worker who's now competing with his own teenager for a $7 an hour job at the local Wal-Mart, because the factory he gave his life to shut its doors, he needs us to stop giving tax breaks to companies that ship our jobs overseas and start putting them in the pockets of working Americans who deserve it and put them in the pockets of struggling homeowners who are having a tough time and looking after seniors who should retire with dignity and respect.

That woman who told me that she hasn't been able to breathe since the day her nephew left for Iraq or the soldier who doesn't know his child because he's on his third or fourth or even fifth tour of duty, they need us to come together and put an end to a war that should have never been authorized and should have never been waged.

So understand this, South Carolina. The choice in this election is not between regions or religions or genders. It's not about rich vs. poor, young vs. old. And it is not about black vs. white.

This election is about the past vs. the future. It's about whether we settle for the same divisions and distractions and drama that passes for politics today or whether we reach for a politics of common sense and innovation, a politics of shared sacrifice and shared prosperity.

There are those who will continue to tell us that we can't do this, that we can't have what we're looking for, that we can't have what we want, that we're peddling false hopes. But here is what I know. I know that when people say we can't overcome all the big money and influence in Washington, I think of that elderly woman who sent me a contribution the other day, an envelope that had a money order for $3.01 along with a verse of scripture tucked inside the envelope. So don't tell us change isn't possible. That woman knows change is possible.

When I hear the cynical talk that blacks and whites and Latinos can't join together and work together, I'm reminded of the Latino brothers and sisters I organized with and stood with and fought with side by side for jobs and justice on the streets of Chicago. So don't tell us change can't happen.

When I hear that we'll never overcome the racial divide in our politics, I think about that Republican woman who used to work for Strom Thurmond, who is now devoted to educating inner city-children and who went out into the streets of South Carolina and knocked on doors for this campaign. Don't tell me we can't change.

Yes, we can. Yes, we can change. Yes, we can.

Yes, we can heal this nation. Yes, we can seize our future. And as we leave this great state with a new wind at our backs and we take this journey across this great country, a country we love, with the message we carry from the plains of Iowa to the hills of New Hampshire, from the Nevada desert to the South Carolina coast, the same message we had when we were up and when we were down, that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we will hope.
And where we are met with cynicism and doubt and fear and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of the American people in three simple words -- yes, we can.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

i can't believe i'm studying for my final examination now..
why does everything seems to happen so fast?
maybe is because of the excessive lab moments..
well, is it a good thing that time zooms past quickly, isn't it?
especially if the future is waaaayyyyy more exciting than the present.
i believe.

just can't help the fact that i'm graduating soon. 1 more sem to go.
and hello masters/working world.
ha..if i could secure a >$2800/mth job, i will say..
bye bye to masters.
and after bond completion, i will say bye bye to singapore.
i am determined.
but before that, i wanna take a life changing-memorable trip somewhere.
just like last year.

Friday, November 7, 2008

am so outdated.. too lazy and tired to maintain my blog now..
as i got so many things in my mind at this point of time
multi-tasking is extremely exhausting =(
the only thing i'm looking forward is to watch
BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA! argh so cute...
issshh the chihuahua song is damn infectious!
sing it loud and life can be so easy..what can make dance..chihuahua..!

so many many many things had happen. so i literally gonna fill up the
whole page if i were to blog about it.

1st up is tropic thunder. watch it in city square like a month ago..wah loa
it's damn cocky. robert downey rocks.
then like series of experiments..
and is the welcome party in microbe department.
this year theme is back to the 70s. the agogo period.
every year, we new comers will have to dress our boss up
according to the stipulated theme.
so moi boss being the spunky one decided to be
marilyn monroe for a day.
and we did a good job indeed!!

it was a fun and crazy day where you see her singing karaoke to abba song.
and other profs singing as well.
it is imp to work hard, and have fun at the same time.
i'm just glad i'm in good lab with supportive lab mates and boss.

The Alonso Lab

The only guys in the lab haha..

Emily helping boss in make up

Argh..i got so many photos to upload..but i'm so lazy to do that..
link here if you wanna see other prof's dress up in some afro, bruce lee and of cuz
austin powers. haha. btw the blonde hair is a wig.
http://gs65.photobucket.com/groups/h224/AD8CO7ZDPE/

girang

Friday, October 17, 2008

i am so so so tired. my diary is literary full of deadlines and experiments.
same goes to my other friends whose doing those cell/animal work.
i know, the stomach twisting you get when you view your data.
it is hard to juggle between work and study.
i seriously think they should just give a year of lab attachment.
without modules of cuz. what a waste of time. shurggghh.

deepavali! holidays! so my dear dr.winnie are you cmin home?
momo birthday leeeh!
sigh. i want to get her a puppy! cuz she's so lonely at home
when papi goes for some golf outing.
argh. but i think she gonna kill it
anytime soon if it poo on the sofa.
but i'm so broke right now. broke as in pok kai.
the lok kai mou qin mai min bao broke.
=(

ok..balik rumah this weekend! FINALLY!

Perjalanan jauh tak terasa
karna hatiku pun melonjak sama
ingin berjumpa dengan sanak saudara
yang selalu bermain dimata

Nun menghijau gunung, ladang dan rimba
Langit nan tinggi bertambah birunya
Deru angin sama turut berlaju
Semuanya bagaikan turut gembira

Balik kampuuung…
Oo.. balik kampung
Oo.. balik kampung, hati giraaannnngggg......+)
ambil duit dari mama dan papa..
ohh hati girang.......+)



weaving my thoughts

Friday, October 10, 2008

okay..so after thinking and thinking...
i have made the decision to pursue my graduate studies.
it is just a thought, not a conclusion yet.
i may work first as a research assistant/research tech/or whatever lab based
to shine up my resume. or i will just do my masters in nus first.
providing if i got the scholarship.
I DON'T WANT a phd from nus..
reason being i want to experience reasearch elsewhere.
i want to work with a different PI, different environment, people..
my thoughts is the united states would be the best place for biomedical sci.
and so i search and search the web for the uni that suits my taste.
CORNELL.
yes, the exact phd degree i would have dream of: immuno+micobio pathogenesis.
it is exactly what I'm doing right now.
it's like a calling.
I WANT TO STUDY in CORNELL.
and that is my aim.
i don't care how old I am, I just want to fulfill my aim and my interest.
and to pursue great science, at a great school, in a great city like NY.
and another VERY IMPORTANT reason
for choosing cornell is money.
money is not a problem as
"All students accepted to Ph.D. degree-granting programs are awarded a full tuition scholarship, which includes all tuition, tuition fees and health insurance costs. In addition to a full tuition scholarship, a generous graduate student stipend of $31,677 per annum "

so, this is a big step and challenge. and a big dream.
can i make it happen??????????

say what..

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

a hell of busy week with so many many many things to do.
in such a short period of time.
BUT at least moi darling is there for me.
so updates! happy belated anniversary..
we're supposed to go to the barracks at dampsey..
but suddenly lok tai yu
and i got a gum inflammation, which hurt so bad..
so we just walk around the place i used to work. raffles city.
speaking of inflammed gum, i went to see the yih dentist
whoa american chinese i think, or maybe she's a chinese
trying to be very ang moh.. but anyways
i had the scaling done on the spot. so lucky as i didn't have any appointment
and someone had canceled, so they just slot me in.
the scaling part was the most mentally traumatized process
i've ever encountered. i hate scaling.
i just shut my eyes, twist my toes, and scream li ren's name in my mind.
i even try to visualize the apoptosis mechanism to avoid the
buzzing sound in my mouth. freaking scary.
and blood was all over the place.
i think my gum is really in rip state.
ok, from today onwards, i shall brush my gum twice a day!
and rinse with the special mouthwash. argghhh.

just completed when dog fall in love with cat..
super touching that i cried in front of my laptop a few times..
sobz sobz.. i'm so goin to have a pet dog in future.
next!! moonlight resonance. time for some bitch fight.

arhh. i hate pharmacogenetics.

I'm back

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

to pu ling xi ji er xi residence.
yeap, after a big round if changes and everything,
i'm finally back. this time is R1.
i have stayed in every R's that offer typeC room,
for the past 3 and half years.
can't believe this is my first and my last home in my undergrad years.

went back home last friday to momo, dad and si gemuk.
and to my super comfy sofa and astro.
i ate and ate like 4 meals a day since friday afternoon..
and met some of my long time no see friends, and
some very very close friends..
yeap, it is true when they say time change
people changed.
what they mostly talked is,
"what is your plan after you grad? lab work pay good or not?"
being me, i will reply
"i will fly to Bahamas and sun bath facing the Caribbean sea. and YES lab work pay is very goood~~*insert smug look*"
but, no unfortunately i didn't replied in that manner.
sigh~ cuz both replies are not true.

if you look too much into the future,
you tend to loose hold of the present.
i would rather be happy
than worrying whats going to happen, worrying
whether i will get a job, how much is my pay..etc.
ishhh.. i totally dislike ppl making salary comparison.
for God sake la, success is not just = $$$ + slk + condo + whatever smug..
success is = $ + making a difference before you die + happy at what you do + finding your true love =)

I think I have found my lover boy, I'm currently enjoying the learning process
but I'm on my way to make a difference from science.
from medicine, sickness, diseases, educating the people.

there, i digress again..6 hrs of sleep. ciao.

Labo Ecouter

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i don't know about other honours students..but for me the past 3 months have been..
i would say..worth it, memorable and crazy with the capital F-U-N.
First it is the project runaway.
The one the everyone wants to anxiously complete and progress to graduation.
Yes the elusive fyp project outcome is getting nearer..and nearer.
How i do, re-do and over-do a single experiment until I can close one eye and do it.
haha..sounds a bit boring, but each time I learn how to make my techniques better,
I learn how to trouble-shoot and be more cautious when dealing with degradable products,
I even modify the manufacturer protocols so I get better yield.
And that I would say is an invaluable learning experience.
And it's not from the text book. =)

Second is tha boss.
Yes, the one who guided me along since day one.
She is very demanding, charming on everyone and on herself.
But still, she can lay on src swimming complex in her bikini after a hard day work.
You don't see a middle age female associate prof go swimming in her bikini.
And wear miniskirt and Prada hills. And those big chunky necklace and earings.
Well, she's French and French people never dress down. Never.
At least I see her smiling everyday, maybe is the grant..thee hee.
That's why we got free spinelli pastries, muffins and coffee for breakfast. =)

And third is the lab mates.
The super enthusiastic group of science people who love to eat and sing K.
But for the science part, they are supportive mentors.
I would say we work like a big team, cuz our projects are inter-linked.
And we recently got addicted to nitendo wii
after having played in adrian's house. haha.
And we're all geared up for our next bowling session. =)
The fight against all labs in IP. We aiming for no.3 spot.
Why? Cuz FredWong's and MikeKem's lab are gonna top the 2 spot. isshh.

And so I heart Cels.

nostalgia

Monday, September 22, 2008

my dear beloved cells, pls don't die on me...=( sigh

vicious cycle

Friday, September 19, 2008

the vicious cycle. nothing interesting.
woke up with extended snooze on my alarm.
running for D bus when it rear out from business school.
queuing for spinelli's white roast coffee. or if i'm running late..
i'll just have my handy 3 in 1 nescafe.
climb up the freaking slope from sci lib to ahu to brenner centre to cels.
wait for the lift door operator that says 'level 3'.
tap my matric card on the detector, grab my log book and off i go with my white coat.
sit in front of the bsc in my blue surgical gown. so not sexy.
check on my 'babies' in the incubator.
rush down the freaking slope again for toxicology lec. eww.
problem based learning assignments. multiple that to 3.
tumor biology essay. pharmacogenetics presentation.
means lots of deadlines...and lots of journals.
protocols for boss. log book entry. lab meetings.
oh shit. and lit review.
and revision. almost forget bout it.
and time for the bf. for the family. for friends. for myself.
and time for bobby au young criminal investigation file part II drama.
ahhh..he's da man!

i need 48 hrs a day. i need to get off this cycle. at least for a while. 8 more months, i can wait.
and after that, i'm going somewhere far.............far from here.

Throw my hands up and let it go

Friday, September 12, 2008

Forget about everything and runaway yeah..
That's what Avril sang to me!! my Fav song from here~~
I just had to say: She's damn cute and cute and cute!! Not the Japanese cute but the very cool and sexy cute! And I can't believe she's married. I'm loving pink and black combination now. Haha.
The concert was opened by some dancers and some sg band and THE MUTTONS from 98.7fm. And we waited and waited and waited...and finally this small little blonde-pink hightlight gal jump out into the stage..the crowd just go wild~~

Alrite snappies!

She sings, she plays the guitar, she plays the piano and she totally rocked on the drums!!!

Happy meal=) I had a great week. Nuff said.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

To all of my friends; friends who are still mugging their way for the degree/masters/phd, friends who had to go through fyp lab nightmare, friends who are in the work force, friends who are on their way chasing their hopes and dreams, friends who are having examination, friends who are courting a girl/guy, friends who are having problem with their gf/bf/boss or other friends and not to forget the sister who had to face so many pbl and exams and whatever in her studies..
here's a nice song lyric by Diana Ross for you guys.

Don't loose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away

Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end

Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm out hearts, everyone

Celebration

Finally settled down in KR, well not bad kind of spacious with lots of cabinets and storage place.. but still, it's just temporary. The room is facing a nice pine tree i think, and very quiet during the day so i got no complaints..=) And bee has been very very kind to me these few days..I think I'm seriously blessed.. although sometimes you get a bit whiny and get on my nerves, but I still lurve you nonetheless..Happy 14 months. We promised each other to have an amazing life together, lets make it happen with a capital A!

After some round of intensive lab session, I finally get my break. For 2 and a half days. So I could organize and read through all my messy notes, and re-write my pharmacogenetics lecture cuz I was practically dozing off in Ed Lee's class. He is the worst worst worst lecturer I've ever encountered after Leslie Harisson. rraahh.


I'll just gonna let my hair down and sing my heart out this Sunday. So loved.

PS: Happy birthday YinFong, Hang Hang and Annabelle..and Liren thanks for the surprise again!!

If we can hold on

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Am I unlucky or what? Sigh, maybe I'm not destiny to be. Maybe. BUT I won't settle until I speak out on what was meant to be spoken. At least I try, rather than just totally give up; that's my philosophy in life.

This week was crazy, with lab work piling up and with boss sitting right beside me to guide on cell line infection. I was hungry and blur right from the morning till noon, seriously I can feel the nerves dilate and contract in my head. Boss was like ngiam ngiam ngiam regina you're not supposed to hold your tubes this way ngiam ngiam ughh...I can only do perfect if nobody is beside me ngiam ngiam...Now, who says washing test tubes are easy? Ah but we don't use test tubes anyways..Dilution plating is seriously killing me..and lots of sheeps as well. Well, you'll understand if your incubator had more than 100 plates of sheep blood agar.

And the craziness end off with shifting all my stuff back to NUS like the xx-th time! Seriously, NUS really got a problem with its face value: if you don't have enough accommodation/lecture theaters/shuttle bus/toilets/canteen tables etc etc. DO NOT take in so many as in A WHOLE BUNCH OF KIDS every single year! The shuttle bus now is like sardin cans, I guess even worse.. Promise there'll be enough accomodation for all international student next year once the village was done..ah..crap la. You're not UCLA, sorry you're not but maybe in 15 years time. But still, you're my alma mater so you would still be given a round of respect.

Friday, August 15, 2008

so i have gone sshhhh for about 2 weeks. let's see, been really busy with the "arrrggghh" kinetic studies..damn..and in the midst of week 1 of the new semester. lectures are mundane except for tumour biology. i must admit pervaiz did a good job getting everyone attention.

sigh. sigh. sigh. i hope i'll have a better choice one year later, that including not staying in nus but venture into a new unbiased less populated place. but i guess that's highly impossible to study elsewhere =( as i'm determine NOT to be a finacial burden for my parents after my undergraduate studies. it's either i cross my fingers and wait for my lucky stars or i continue with what has been offered in singapore. i don't know.. argh i think i'll just give my best shot for now.

i feel like downing on malibu sunrise now...=( with really really good music on the background..

BUT BUT hor...AVRIL LAVIGNE is coming down to Singapore~~~i nearly click the "pay by mastercard" the last time i check the seating!! well, i need to ask the baby boy first cuz it's not a small sum of $ hmmmmm...should i sacrifice one month with the daily bread meals??

Thursday, July 31, 2008

feeling the tiredness after coming back from the malacca trip..maybe it's the food..ate too much until i feel so tired..;D but you just can't resist the good food there..my heart still miss the good old days there..

and the hotel is really nice, swanky brand new by the sea! lurve it@@ luckily i know the way around, so brought the guys to a couple of nice hang out place..malacca got lots lots lots of nice hang out place and food..only the locals would know where to find the best! haha..we took a bus to portuguese settlement, stopped at ujong pasir..and showed em the old malacca house i used to stay in..it's still there! miss it so much..and of cuz we ate at the best portuguese stall ever..

we pretty much ate the whole jonker street..there's this stall where we ate almost everyday cuz everyone was craving for its fried fu chuk and chendol..wahhaahahaha.... and of cuz we do burn it all out in the hotel pool..hey it's an iffinity pool overlooking the sea, so we have to jump in no matter what!

sunset by the pool

monkeys and gorillas

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

so, life is boring..at the moment. ha, maybe i should have my hair dye and style in jb? to give thy a whole new look for next semester..muahaha yea i should do that when i have the time.. =) there goes rm200..
ha, maybe i should get a tatoo above my butt as well. i've always wanted a tatoo there..cuz it'll looked good in bikini, ok i'll consider that. buahaha i'm crazy.

was in the r5 lounge last night..doing some lab paper work, and suddenly a whole bunch of freshmens or i would say the uncivilized malaysian chinese throng into the room like its their house like tat..i'm ok with you kids chatting around but not screaming at each other~what a bunch of monkeys. and of all the games that exist in this world..they actually played the calling names game. whoa..i ceased myself playing it since form 5! and of all the names in the world, they called themselves papaya, banana, watermelon etc etc..in chinese. and you can her them yelling "xi gua!!!" wth =__+" i wonder if their academic results really reflect their personality??
they must be from penang and kl. i know their chinese-educated penang accent. shitheads. they even played the "find the killer" game! omfg. gaarrhh...well, kids..let's see how long you can play when NUS starts to eat you up the thing called modules.

and so i left the lounge. i suddenly feel so proud of my sis who's apparently same age as them.. well at least she behaves like a 20 year old.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

life is bored when you know that when
1. you're procrastinating on writing your lit review
2. you're surfing style.com for some therapy
3. you're scrolling on facebook over again
4. you're searching for cheap air tickets
5. you're waiting for time to pass...

sigh.

and oh.. i think batman: the dark knight is one of the best superhero movies i've ever watched after ironman. i would say heath ledger had played one heck of a superb psychologically challenged role in batman...he kind of reminds me of anthony hopkins as hannibal lecter, minus the pian tai cannibalistic part...yeah, ledger will be a legend as ppl are goin to remember him for a long long time..

the invisible me

Thursday, July 17, 2008


okay, so it's been quite some time since i ramble here cuz apparently there's no internet connection at gillman heights. yes, i've moved to that secluded hilltop with a freaking bathroom that gave me goosebumps!! YIKES....i shall not elaborate here.

LIREN DARLING now please please please get your cute ass into eusoff or whatever they offer you ok?!! go fight for it! how can the stupid kr comm kick u out after u slog for them as the captain last year? they are just like peanuts forgetting its skin (translate to malay ba...) well, get into some other hall and i'll say you show them who's peanuts now! trash the kr bball team. gah!

going to have a nice weekend break to type out my lit review for boss. hopefully, i'll finish it before the malacca trip. yes, i HAVE to finish it before boss come back from France! when my mentor decided to leave her lab, i seriously got no one to turn to for any help. except for li rui. so basically i just monkey see monkey do. last week is the first time i've ever passage my cell culture and freeze the cuties in liquid nitrogen. all by myself. did all these by just reading some online protocols and guidelines since boss is not around. wow, and i actually still alive right now, providing the fact that i didn't screw up the liquid nitrogen tank. so afraid the liq will pop onto my skin and that's it. a nice big hole where i can see my bones. geezz i hate forsty stuff..one day i accidentally stuck my wrist onto the -80 deg fridge casing, and i need to tug really hard to get my hand off...shi..my skin nearly peel off. it was red and stinging like mad..=( i think cels should buy us insurance, you know just in case...

so what's next? wait for the sem to start go into lab bid for modules. go for lecture. the same vicious cycle for my 7th semester in NUS. do assignments. give presentations. then final exams. then 8th semester. then thesis and presentation. then graduate. and then?? then i will work part time earn a bit $ AND THEN I WILL LEAVE. at least for a while. i don't care what my mum will say. and i know my dad will not say anything as he supports me in whatever i do.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

argh! i don't know wat is freaking wrong wif my layout..the background suddenly disappear..**** but anyways, i got so much to do before going back to melaka..lab work and report!! gotta pia all the work before the trip!



muahahha i love sushi!!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

4th July~ this may come in a bit late but..still happy ONE freaking year anniversary dahling!!! muaaaahhhhh!! haha i vividly remember the day today one year ago. we were at santa monica pier, having dinner at forrest gump restaurant...and then we walked on the santa monica beach.. wow..and there it was. fireworks for american independence day.. how sweet that sound right? so many good memories i had, i must have been blessed!

thanks for the lovely yummy dinner yesterday=) and the super duper nice things that you've done for me, your great tolerance on me, your support, your protection, your hugs when i need them, and all of your love!! muaaaahhhh~~ai shi te ru ne......

to my fat sis whose going up to kl: go pia and pia..but don't stress urself too much, and don't eat too much ah! i know the mamak there is nice but must keep fit ah! remember, it's the road that you've decided to take, so take 100% responsibility on everything that comes along ok which means since you've chosen this course, so you gotta work very very hard on it, ok?? anything, just give me a phone call and i will try my best to help. we are the ya-ya sisterhood mah...=) enjoy da orientation and ahem ahem don't forget the hansem doctors wannabes....cheers! must call me at least once a week ah!!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

ok..so maybe is not my very last week in pgp after all. we decided not to do the whole unit renting, we all decided to move to gillman heights while waiting for the "waiting list". SERIOUSLY no one even bother to maintain the the building. so damn run down, can you imagine showering in yellow lamp? so damn creepy. but anyways, it's just for 5 weeks. hope i'll get a room soon. or li ren will get to confirm his hall. so i can still stay in sch..

so much had happened this few weeks..shifted to kj, not yet officially sleep in my new house yet, sis going to kl study, the clementi house dispute, when yilin left the lab, lab with so much work..

to all of my friends of class 2008, you guys rocks!! whatever the future hold for you my friends..like the daily 9-5 job, the lab job, the sales job, the bank job or whatever...don't ever loose hope for your dreams and passion!!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

ah well, guess this is my very very last weekend here in pgp. =( hmm although i kept complaining this place is like a jail, nevertheless most of the good and bad memories were built here..sobz sobz..

i remember vividly, in year 1 when there's only jimmy, lui peng and zhijiang...ya so my life revolved around them and we hang out together most of the time until merdeka night 2005 where we met a group of interesting people..=) ha..all those late night supper, maggie mee party, tv room bookings, the morning pei tan porridge breakfast, the posing around pgp, the sleep over up to year 2. that's when li ren "appeared" in my life, where we will hang out and study together in pgp function room with ah liang as an excuse!! hehe....oh, i'm going to miss this place. my first home in singapore leh.

the first official house will be in clementi ave 1, block 401 directly behind of NUS high school the geek school. we kind of lucky to get a place quite near and at a good bargain as well..but the place is a bit of old..ha as long as got a place to stay, near school, i'm fine with it. is just for 1 year

anyway..i made some magazine poster ad for some of my shots with a new photo editor my sis recommended, but only for my personal collection..tee hee.. i think this one look cute. lucky nian you din show his face! edit a bit on the lighting, contrast and shodow..haha don't know what to type so i add in a bit of fashion bits. looks a bit rugged if view in large scale cuz i took it with my K810i. maybe next time we shoot one more with a better camera guys! wah they si beh li hai pose lor! who say kt no good looking guys??

disclaimer: not for public circulation, only for ktg (kt gang) members. credits: tan ny, loo ys, yap jimmy =)

You'll always be a part of me

Monday, June 16, 2008

i’m a part of you indefinitely
boy, don’t you know you can’t escape me (heheehhe)
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby.................

ha. sigh. i'm easily tired these days. and distracted as well. ha.
read the star online regarding the increasing fuel price, food price in m'sia, and it is really sad to see family struggling to make end meets. fuel demand over surplus?? ha, i think is a speculation. well, the basic human nature is greed. so people will normally take advantage on situation that favors their interest irregardless of others. so who is to blame? the government? ha, i'm so ashamed them these days. they are more concern on making empty promises, still good at pocketing god knows how much of my dad's money from the taxes.

i find that all the "pride" being a m'sian is so much superficial. what should i be proud of? the twin tower? duh. the handsome guy who went to outer space? the sepang F1? the proton car? the mahathir? the pavillion!!? or the no. of rapes that happened in the country? so sad right.

maybe if they use the US26million (that produce the angkasawan guy) to built and fund a research lab on dengue or malaria, send more deserved students to overseas, built proper education system, train better school teachers, aid the poor.....so many more better things than 1 angkasawan, they'll at least gain a bit of r.e.s.p.e.c.t from me. i seriously don't know what is wrong m'sia these days.

happy C month~~

Saturday, June 14, 2008

slack the whole day today..was supposed to go home and treat my dad something nice, but he suddenly got a conference to attend, so will postponed it to next week ba..i can't wait to get back to lab on monday. yes, is hard work, but i enjoy it. simple as that. yesterday was the 1st time i saw jian hang got excited on his work. he finally got something out after the 3rd attempt and that put a smile on his face. i was happy for him too! didn't know it was that hard to grow a mutant bacteria. but still he wants to work on rectifying the selectivity of growth. that's the spirit of a good scientist, i would say.

have been listening to this for like the 10th time, and still in love with it!! @@) david cook is really good! thank god he won!
Always Be My Baby (Studio) - David Cook

and my baby is playing basketball now. =)

Friday, June 13, 2008

whoa~~ today is by far the most tiring lab day ever!!!!!!!!!!!! i need a foot massage now, make it back massage as well! ouch =( but nevertheless! i'm proud that i got 70% of the optimal results! hard work does pay off!!

went to dim dai fung with lina jie and ren yeaterday. well, as usual is lina jie's treat again. tee hee..hmmm she basically ordered every single dish on the menu. yeah and we ate everything on the table. from the appetizers to the dessert..the dumplings are so so much better than crystal jade kitchen/palace/or whatever level. no offense to crystal jade, but you are no match when it comes to dumplings with the hot soup inside..wooh..yummy.

so we chatted a lot about our family the 何家 gossips..apparently wedding bells will be on its way again and you can see my grandma is smiling all the way. and lina jie is going to hmmm lets see..ireland, scotland, the netherland, belgium etc...so fun! let's see if i can save up to the 4 digits plus a bit of sponsor from daddy...then hmmm maybe i will pack my bags and leave! but, the saving up to 4 digits part would be a bit impossible unless i eat grass everyday......=(

tired. now waiting for my supper..my eyelids are heavy!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

slept for more than 10 hrs today whao...the weather was good! anyway portugal won last night in euro opening!!(yay christiano!)and me and the guys were hungry last night so we down 4 packets of mee goreng and a can of patrick's hong sau kou rou..heh but thank god i jog quite a bit yesterday..clementi lunch was pontian wonton mee, well the fried wonton is good but the mee so so only le, i've tasted better ones in malaysia!

and yes, we planning a trip to melaka on july tentatively..is me liren lionel chee wai ah liang and their gals..and whoever wanna join la cuz we plan to book a mahkota apartment. hehe let's see..since melaka is sort of my hometown, i'm gonna do some recommendation.
1. jonker street market (food food and more food)
2. nyonya laksa. NOT the PENANG one. Melaka one is more of peranakan style..yum!
3. iced mountain chendol kekeke
4. durian chendol at tan kim hock. oh man those days where dad will bring us there everytime he came back!
5. satay celup at bandar kaba. ong kim wee ones not that good.
6. Portuguese settlement, the place i used to hang out after tuition class..oh the portuguese seafood is good. SEE how they glorify christiano ronaldo ba...
7. the ujong pasir nasi lemak and mee rebus. melaka style. i think the nasi lemak is tha world best...seriously..
8. and be prepared for the sweet sauce added char kuey tiaw. they don't add sweet sauce in ckt in johor, sg or penang. nvr tried before le. melaka still the best!
9. oh how can you missed the melaka nyonya style big fat white popiah with sengkuang?
10. and of cuz bring them to nyonya baba heritage museum to see the lifestyles of my ancestors...hehe ah well, we shall see then..

watched the online version of kung fu panda today, wah kao..damn funny! big fat low self esteemed Po was thought to be THE dragon warrior..ha well, he is..anyway here's what he said in his dreams.."Awesome has no price. Nor does attactiveness..." -___-""
and "There's no secret ingredients. It's all in yourself" well said panda!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

today is not a bad day after all, as i managed to do the inoculation myself, and hopefully there'll be no serious contamination this time! next week is going to be another busy busy week apart from the lab work, and the animal course yes i'm going to potentially kill lots of mice..but the good news is..our new house is ready! mummy said gotta shift by july cuz according to her shifting during the hungry ghost festival is big no no. so we just shift in first even before the furnitures arrive. officially it's going to be no.23 jalan limau nipis taman kota jaya approimately 3.58 minutes drive from kader! woohoo! teh peng on the spot.

wth right . jalan limau nipis. can't they have better names?? old house name is under jalan bawal (means ikan bawal) then they got jalan kangkung jalan bayam jalan tenggiri so uncreative.. haiz but i still love the little town...hehe. oh ya, my new neighbor has this cute breed..oh so cute~~ i'm gonna play with him whenever i'm back!

This is science, not if you're a Life Sci student

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

If you are a science FICTION fan like me, this is one of the best series you must watch!! I heard about The Andromeda Strain from my UCLA Bioterrorism prof..is actually a 'chim' novel written by Michael Crichton the guy who brought you Jurassic Park..=) I have been searching for this book for quite some time it was first published in 1969 and hopefully after the series...haha you only get it from Amazon.com. Anyways, its really hard to explain but I believe such event will never take place. Well, at least not in our lifetime. Unless Ebola emerge and some supervirus coinfect a living organism...hah but this could happen in outer space..like maybe some suei astronaut got some sick strain from the edge of Andromeda galaxy..but that'll never happen also cuz by the time the astronaut get back to earth couting away those light years, the earth will probably got no more humans...btw virus also get incinerated at very high temp..so if it falls on earth via meteorites, ha i think it'll get chao da... duh..just enjoy the series for the sake of sci ba =) i'm gonna watch it online! hehe

oh ya, i think my RNA sample is a flop. cuz senior forget to ask me to add rna later. means i gotta re-do. and now still waiting for the new kit to come it. or maybe first attempt not so careful... since it has to be 99.9% sterile and pure..sad but it's ok. at least i learn from the first round so it's a good thing. but the bf is not happy cuz i told him i cannot confirm with him on the iPoh trip. and apparently i told him i CANNOT confirm with him before. i got like a fcking bad mood already, and he sort of downgrade it even further..first of all, I AM THE one who's disappointed at all these. i can't go to ipoh to meet yinfong as promised, I need to redo my WHOLE experiment, I need to explain to boss why my gel photo look like shit, I need to present my project to the whole lab this Tuesday..now at this point I can't help but to cry in the bus today. i got down the bus and take it all in and tell myself this is NOT who I portrayed myself to be. my dad don't send me to NUS to cry on an A2 bus. then I call my dad yes thank god for the family around. and i feel better after the guys force me to play a badminton game. yeah, I feel so much better now...

A little flashback

Saturday, May 31, 2008

moi sis had sweet sweet fantasy in her blog, thought i should upload a dreamlover here. lina jie used to blast her songs many many years ago...dream lover some rescue me!

Bitter.... kaaar pui!

Friday, May 30, 2008

the release of my un-meaningful examination results, well not so good not so bad always the mediocre. praise the lord or god or whoever that heard my prayers that i did not get a cookie for my infectious diseases. crappy module. and li ren has the cheek to say "oh i did badly for biotech.. i just got a B+". for a moment, i thought he sounded like that daniel. and for a moment, i thought he is demoralizing me because I ALSO work as hard as anybody else. no offense dear, but this is just my very personal sensitive opinion.

i'm not looking forward to the weekend..seriously, so many journals to read and write and read and type and protocol preparation. the the lab part would be better. li li just got me a set of BRAND new pipettes dedicated only to my RNA work. wah boss is very generous..i just order 6 sets of fresh primers hope they all anneal nicely so i can get nice pretty data out by next week!

since most of my very old classmates are back, maybe i should call them up to crap a bit about our boring uni life and exciting future plans..ah my holidays taste like an an expired vanilla ice cream without the cone, cherry and chocs melt....

Ramblings

Monday, May 26, 2008

just back from pattaya and bangkok! hmm...how i wish we could have more days for the trip... nvm i will be back soon!! well, pattaya (2 hours journey from bangkok) was very very much like venice beach in california. they have rows of shops and hotels and bars along the pattaya beach road..and the beach span about few km from one end to the other..the sea view is awesome!! and my hotel room actually face the beach so you just can't help to admire the horizon in the morning!! we didn't really shop in the pattaya town cuz the guide said stuff down there were much more expensive than in bangkok.

then we headed back to bangkok city, went to all sorts of "tourist" places ie floating market, elephant show man playing with the croc who looked so bored, pray the 4 face Buddha, and AHEM of cuz shopping! my sis and i nearly bought the whole shop in jajutak, the bugis street version for thailand!! the shirts and dresses there are ridiculously cheap. and i mean CHEAP. wah..how i wish i bought more.....mome bought heavy souvenirs for our new home decor, she's a killer when it comes to bargaining, that poor shopkeeper..

and of all places, the tourist guide bought us to siam paragon. wth. as if i can afford to buy anything from there...well, maybe the mng, zara and guess is still my limit, but all those lv, gucci and marc jacobs..OH there's a couple of huge victoria beckham poster ad for marc jacobs. she looked so hmm weird and fake. but i still love her!! hehe

the only thing that surprised me is that the income gap is very very huge in thailand, unlike singapore. i saw a couple of lamborghini and ferrari, high rise condominium and thai women carrying real prada bags all in the midst of slum houses and roadside peddlers. well, the rich get richer the poor get poorer then??

ps: god bless the people in sichuan/beichuan and myanmar..all they need now is the courage and strength to move on.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i guess i'm pretty lucky to be in dr.alonso's lab as my colleagues are really helpful...gee..i'm such an average there. even hang hang is stressin me out. he cannot not work less for a day. nah..me is me.. him is him..me a struggling procrastinating dreaming student and him a dean list. shit, i wonder why alonso pick us both?? sigh. just pray and pray and pray i don't screw up this time...

sigh. i miss my boy. miss miss miss him. =( i miss my soul mate..the one i can punch and kickbox and pinch his already widen face..the one i can hug like a big teddy....

Monday, May 12, 2008

oh my gosh, i'm so so freaking tired today..shifted to my vacation room. small windows. i hate small windows. bloody trolly cost me 10 bucks. gee they-management are so evil.. oh, how i miss my airy old room facing the harbor... that would probably be the best room i've ever get from pgp..

and oh my gosh again, MANCHESTER UNITED won the EPL!!!! woo hoo!! double woo hoo!!! what a good game, although i got distracted into playing ren's new htc touch phone in the middle..wah, i also want the touch phoneeee......so organize! and they WILL win the champion league too!

urrghhhh so tired. i'm going sleep and have some weird dreams..been having really weird cartoony dreams lately. 10 more days to fly. =)

Friday, May 9, 2008

happy holidays for me, and happy mother's day to momo! tee hee! ah well, not actually a holiday for me but, still no more boring crappy lectures for the next 3 months! only lab, mice and bacteria. =) eee i'm such a geek. anyhoo, me and ren went to watch what happend in vegas..ha it's a fun chick movie. how i miss las vegas=) i love cameron diaz ass!! as a female, i'm still like "wow"! yeah she's right when she said she rather do the things she love to do and be happy about it =) well, maybe i will or maybe i will have a job that i hate and earn lots of money from it and with that i can do the things i love to do!! hehe i'm more realistic..

yup i'm back to my home sweet home today. everybody's like going back to their homie today..haiz still lazy to pack my stuff le. it's like the same for every semester, but this time round it would be different. because i may not be back to stay in pgp ever again. yeap, no matter how much i hated this "jail" and this no use studying (nus) place...i had so many so many fond memories here since my year 1. i still remember when the 3 of us (me, jimmy and zhijiang) squeeze in the same car with our heavy luggage and heavy hearts leaving our small little comfort town to singapore...sigh~~

then at first it was only the foursome including lui peng, and suddenly (fatefully i would say) our circle of friends got much bigger and bigger...and bigger..and like we know almost all the malaysians in life sci who stayed in pgp. haha. thanks to msl merdeka night, or else there'll just be us only...=) so i proposed every merdeka in future, we must have a friendship reunion party!!!! hehe

omg we looked so different now.............

Post exam partaaaay!!

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Ahhahaahha finally..it feels like I have graduated!! anyways, we me jimmy yinfong and yixin) had a wild night yesterday. went for korean food at west coast korean charcoal bbq..very nice, very traditional. we were amazed by the variety of dishes, and esp the hand towel~! it was rolled up like a tiny white sweet, but upon addition of water, ta dah..you got the expanded towel..like some criss angel work.=)

and we head down to st.james powerstation for some drinks and loud music. my legs are wobbly after all the dancing yeah..but it was fun!


AND i've been kissed by a cute little boy. twice. i think he's french. was sitting at the rooftop pavement of vivo city, a cute little boy was running around the area, well..i smiled at him and said hi. and he came back with a chip for me...so sweet..ah well then he asked his dad whether he could kiss me or not..i was like "-_______-"""' ahh, since he's so cute, no harm right? tee hee.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

one more day...less than 24 hours..i will be yeehaa-ing all the way. this sem is totally brain draining me. wth my friend has left for her backpacking trip to europe...and i'm still studying for pharmaco. when will it be my turn?

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Iron Man is by far the coolest and sexiest superhero i've ever seen (well at least he's made of steel and not wearing an underwear on the outside)!! Ha went to watch it with Ren this afternoon in an impromptu manner..the movie was unexpectedly good..uber sleek and cool..omg i just lurrve the Audi..arrgg the Audi!

anyways i "accidentally" got myself a rubber shoe today. yes the croc rubber shoes. but not the big fat ugly one..as if my leg is not big enough.well, i got the ballerina type..saw people wearing it..and it looks cute. very comfy i would say..good for long walks. =) and the best thing is..i can add little jitbitz on it! =) ngek ngek but my ankle still looks fat in it...sigh..at least it's comfy...

Saturday, May 3, 2008

hmm what should i write today? in the midst of "damn pharmacology!" i think i should crap a bit on the exclamation mark ! there. just want it to end asap because i don't "feel" the paper anymore. hmmm i just don't see the relevance of studying how synthetic drugs work in human... well unless if i'm a consumer of the drugs which is "choi" i hope i won't be one of them or if i'm a medical doctor or pharmacist but nope no way, other than that i will not use the "memorize" knowledge in the future. well, to put it crudely, it's actually for the damn grades i'm studying for, which i think is also pointless because i always end up demoralized more than before. anyway those with weaker memory will loose out. which i personally think is unfair. well, isn't life inherently unfair at the beginning?

i guess the the only subject that i can ACTUALLY applied into my lab work is microbiology, biotechnology, experimental mol biology and immunology. damn. now i'm in the wrong concentration..i think. sigh. but morrie said once a road has been taken, don't look back, just do your best because you'll find something good out of it. i hope you are right, morrie.

oh..talking about biotech, i'm very excited that the biotechnology firm i ahem ahem secretly admired for the past 5 years since i saw its cover on Fortune mag will actually set up a processing plant here in singapore..! ah, actually not that secret la, my sis knows about this long long time ago. wow. it's like a dream (my dream) company to work for..well maybe at its HQ in San Frans Bay area, i don't know about singapore because it's just a human recombinant protein processing plant. anyways, i will still give it a try in future!!! how should i explain? well to exaggerate, without its presence i think there will be millions of people with cancer won't be able to see their kids graduate from high school, thousands of children won't live past their adolescent life, even more elderly would not be able to dance to their favorite music and my paternal grandfather would not had passed away 30 years ago because of diabetes. theirs and the world first synthetic human insulin only came out in 1982, too late huh. a lot people thought it was from Eli Lilly, yeah they manufactured it but it was GENENTECH who created and licensed it to Lilly. and also many other pharma firms.

the company is also committed to make their medicines (mostly humanised recombinant protein which is DAMN expensive to develop) available to those who cannot afford it, to put in sum is about US$1billion in free medicine to uninsured patients. wow. the so called big pharma should learnt more from the biotech firm. =) btw, the firm's founder Boyer and Swanson (and Cohen, not the founder) suddenly came up with the idea that plasmid of e.coli can be manipulated and by inserting a human gene into it, you can produce therapeutically efficient protein "drug" in humans. now, that's what i called freaking genius!! really, i admired these people. =)

whoa i think i typed too much. shall stop. ah maybe i'm just too bored.....

I want

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

to have the ride of my life. again. this is probably the most qi kek thing i've ever done in my life. the ride was short. but the feeling last for a lifetime. he screamed "i love you" at me during the ride....oh how i miss it..

eh..i'm supposed to be studying now? no. =P

The pursuit of stress

Monday, April 28, 2008

it really breaks your heart when you put so much so much of effort in something, you still fail. fail to the point that you feel like whatever you did and your effort seems so...meaningless now. and especially when a single piece of paper could potentially pull down the years of hard work. i just want to leave this place asap.

anyway, my life is determine by me. not u you stupid mt. for the first time, i don't wan't to care anymore. i'm throwing all the notes into the recycle bin downstair. goodbye.

anyway an interesting exchange student sat beside me in lab for the paper..i heard him snorted and laugh at the "which part of the body do you think the symptoms of n.gonorrhea (an std) will occur in heterosexual males?" i'm am pretty sure he wrote something like "your dXXX" to mt. and i think he drew something also. wth. and he laugh again. then he left one hour earlier. man, how i wish i could s/u and xiao zhang like him....

Sunday, April 27, 2008

damn stupid. laptop kena spywareee..ah, but found a solution for it with the help of some online geeks, will remove it immediately after exams. =)
woke up with a pretty pretty sunday morning. with the cool breeze coming in from the windows, the sound of water fountain below, and the nice harbour view from my room..it's time to mug all the way!! infectious..too much, but nonetheless i did learnt a lot..a lot from it. sigh, i guess the module would be more fun if we were asked to do assignment/case studies presentation instead of memorizing how did H5N1 took place...

Saturday, April 26, 2008

one down. =) four more to go. wah my right fingers felt so numb after the biotech paper. too much of pressure on it, thank god for my 5566 ball pen! buatan malaysia. hehe. ah ~~ forget biotech, dun wanna care about it since i throw all the notes into the junk box just now. bye bye.

the weather is so damn hot today. and really don't feel like studying for id and drugs. sianz. its goin to be over soon...=)

momo said we probably gonna move in to our new home on 8/8/08. hhmm asked her why..then she said "beijing olympics opening on that day ma..so it must be auspicious!" -____-"" that's my mum. i roughly got the idea how my new room goin to looked like. can't wait to decorate it... although i'm not staying in that room "permanently" but it is still going to be my room. =) it's going to have a lot of love in it, with colour photos, black white photos and all my tour souvenirs and ty bears.

manchester united vs chealsea. tonight. waahh.....im goin to watch it. while studying of cuz. thnk god for sopcast. i love china satellite =)

i just wanna eat and sleep and get fat

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

this is darn boring sia.
i still haven't touch my drugs. and iD is killin me brain softly.
holidays faster come so i can start laying my hands on how to do knockout mutants. and learn how to slay a mice puurrfectly. sorry PETA, is for goodsake. i'm such a geek. no, if alonso didn't request me to help out with the mutants, i would have start planning what to wear to redang. anyways, no redang for me wif the gers. =( =(

BUT shopping and eating in bangkok is coming soon. again. so i just can't wait. so there's still something to look forward this hols. and not to mention ipoh. yay, zee glamorous ipoh food is also waiting... ..

aarrghhhgghhhggdghhhhhhhharghh. there.

i believe in passion

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Lost

Saturday, April 19, 2008

such a gloomy sight..to complement on my mood today. i hate the clouds. i hate them because they made me sad. i wish for more blue sky, no clouds...maybe then i will smile again.

I listen to her play

Thursday, April 17, 2008

when i'm bored studying..heh seriously i think she got a wicked skill for the piano!! now i regret didn't learn how to play the instrument when i was young..was such a tomboy back then. hehe gonna download all of her clips from youtube into my mp3 thanks to my sis secret method~~ happy mugging.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

great. so many to study in so little time. and so many to put inside my head. i hate the contents. x__x. i am practically in the bad mood zone today, well there's nothing to be happy about at anything at this point of time. except that i did laugh a bit at Robin Williams Russian impersonation in Idol gives back. and now i think my bf is unhappy with me because i told him i need to set up my own zone of study. which means no trespassing. no kacau-ing. no talking. sorry bee. =( you will understand right?

all we need is radio ga ga radio goo goo

Friday, April 11, 2008

wached the AI results show on you tube today. what the fig. michael john was eliminated. =( so disappointed and angry. damn all those guys who voted for kristy. she is such a.........#

ah anyway, we went to we will rock you musical yesterday..wow, it was an amazing performance as stated by the critics. very entertaining, very on pitch, very handsome, and very funny. haha. nice. i enjoyed the show, nevertheless..although i'm not a big fan of queen but i grow up listening to their songs..so most of them are very familiar. they started off with "radio ga ga" then end it with "we will rock you" as first i was disappointed they didn't perform bohemian, but suddenly the screen flashes "so do you want bohemian rhapsody? oh all right then.." haha we were all screaming like mad. that was like the cherry on the cake. yummy. and oh boy, the band members are so so so so hot! remind me of mike shinoda..tee hee. yup i have to admit the music these days are more digitalized and diluted. lack of inspiration. lack of feel. just compare what mariah carey sings today with 10 years ago. so sad.


anyway, to top another cheery on the cake, we managed to take a picture with the main cast Mig Ayesa+) heh heh. nice.

today they has this sweden bazaar at sci. went to have a look with the ID guys after we escape from the horrigible lecture. whao. they had many nice scenery pictures. what a beautiful country..~~ mark was trying out some weird biscuits with raw fish and mustard. he said it was good, so we go and gobble a few..wow. it was good. i never tasted anything like this before! weird but nice. hehe. the meat balls are ok. oh the swedes biscuits were nice..a bit of gingery taste. yum. i like the cute little play horse they had for display. =)