Here In My Home by Malaysian Artistes for Unity

OH there's a mispoken truth that lies...colors don't bind. =)

Malaysia, my heart will always be with you...no matter how bad the political nature is..as long as there's unity there's still hope.

it's april..and it could only mean one thing..
THESIS!!!!!
yikes. =S =S
crafting out a masterpiece is not that simple..i guess it really
takes a lot of guts, sweat, tears and some cells to do it.
you know..don't even know how much gene mutation have i accumulated
in the lab with all the toxic materials and irradiation. sheeh..
but anyways it's gonna end soon...hahaha. so let's hope it's going to be a good one.
=)

at this point of time...i need my retail therapy.
i'm sort of officially broke right now, cuz i've forked out 2 mths of
advance rental for the house that i'm gonna stay in the future..
PAPI i'm waiting for you!! btw..the house is really nice, landed and spacious!
well, although it's not as big as my own house in kt with nice sofas and plama tv...
but it is still big as compared to a hdb house. muahahaha.
and no lifts!! i'm scared of lifts!
esp those with a transparent door where you see in ghost movies
and at you see the person appearing at each level...
creeps me out!!
thank god the owner is super duper kind and generous..
so grateful of em =) we have a good bargain as well! so it's just perfect.
the housing estate...reminds me of kota besar =)
where each house has their own unique design..
but ours was the old fashion type..very 1970s..
still..it's going to be a good start!

back to work! i need to bring back in my form 6 power!!
gaarrghhh..why am i'm so mundane right now??
is it the age?
or is it the deprivation of home-cooked meals?
i'm like a skanky skeleton now. shit.
i want to go home to momo..and be the teen girl again..

ok back to work..=(

in less than 2 months, i will be concluding my final undergraduate
journey here..at NUS. yes, the National University of Singapore.
the prestige. the scary. the bitter. the bell-curved university.

i vividly remember my first day in nus open house.
about 4-5 years ago. i came with a group of secondary school mates,
including jimmy. i remember we visited pgp for the first time, cuz
jimmy cousin sis was staying at pgp, and had my first meal
in the pgp aircon canteen. i remember is the un-delicious beef noodle.
little did i know, the place called pgp became my last home in nus...
and in pgp, i definitely have a whole lot of memories..both happy and sad.
i remember meeting a bunch a girls who late became my ji muis..
i remember meeting a tall guy who allowed me to use his room as a vacation storage in yr2,
without paying any rent =)...and he later became the most important person in my life..
i remember celebrations after celebrations, the late night study, the supper, the little talks.
and so much more, that i will and promise to make a collage out of it.

above all the friendships...is the academic. of cuz, this is a uni i'm talking about.
yes, the tremendous academic workloads. the vigourous academic culture.
most of the time..it is always academic-linked..be it a cca or a community service.
initially, i tought well this is the university culture. i have to accept it.
work hard, get the results, and get out, i hate nus mentality crop up
until i went for an exchange...
i sort of re-discover myself. i feel so relaxed, so joyful and for the first time
i feel so peaceful. i would sit by my room window and stare at the beautiful los angeles.
and i know....God is great. the world is not as small as i see it is.
i can be whatever i want to be. if i choose to pursue it.
with kindness, with passion, and with honesty.
and i told myself, as i sat by the window...i'm extremely blessed to be in LA.
and it's all thanks to NUS, faculty of science for their generous sponsor,
or else it'll just be a nice little dream for me. and i'm truly grateful.
i know when i'm back, i'm a student with a different direction.
and no matter how hard the journey is, i'm going for it.

and then there's the one year long thesis. although i didn't get my
first choosen project in malaria,
i did get something un-expected. a supportive supervisor, who later became a good friend.
a bunch of crazy lab mates.. who loves buffet, bowling and k-box.
and i get to work with bsl-2 pathogen. and a bsl-3 in the future.
so i guess, it's quite true when they say when one door closes, another door will open.
it's only the matter of time when you land on the unexpected or the unwanted
and you could probably say this to yourself
"hey this is not that bad at all!" in the end

so life in nus has thought me one thing
the real world is going to be far more unpredictable.
because it's such an oyster out there with so many diff kinds of ppl.
you'll just have to hear, speak, and see no evil.
and it's going to be another transition. i hope nus has given me all the guts!

happy 24 to myself.

papi: "eh today ur burfday le. happy burfday ah. big girl already"
me: "-____- big girl? i think i'm old liao. no more girl girl."
papi: "where got old, u still depend on me so not yet old. u only consider old when you're independent, financially..hehe"
me: "........erm yeah, once i graduate deh! i will then be independent lor.."

can i stay young girl girl forever? haha....hmm maybe not!

today i just read some notes posted by a coursemate in facebook
lamenting how depress it is for a student not having good grades..and
concluded they won't have a "vibrant" lifestyle when they graduate..
well, i don't wanna start on a cat fight in facebook..so i will spit some of my thoughts here
gggaaarrhhh!

first of all, grades is important but it depends on what is your career path mah!
use common your sense, if you choose to become a professor or an ASTAR scientist..
of cuz you got to have the first class..well not everyone wants to be a skanky prof btw.
so you have second class, third class or whatever they like to categorise the students.
basically the note implies that you're as good as a sad lil puppy if you can't get good grades
because you won't be employed and therefore cannot enjoy a fruitful lifestyle..
oh hell no, i have friends without honours who is proud and happy at their job as
teachers, sales exec, human resource etc etc..and they are pretty vibrant as i can see!
gaarrhh don't insult my friends hor! btw, the facebook account she's using now
is created by a Harvard college drop out tee hee..way to go.
but she did meantioned about if you got talent then grades doesn't matter..bla bla
wah..i also got talent at painting and clay work ahem ahem..means my grades doesn't matter?
haha funny.

aiya, why so serious? don't ever let the freaking grades control your life, always
take control of your life and in that way, you will see the true meaning of living a life.
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ok i wanna share a nice vid to reduce the "fire"..muahaha damn funny 15 million views in you tube! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtJRNyPK-lc&feature=related
if you know michael jackson thriller vid, then you'll know this!

check out the website i've tagged on my list "street fashion"peeps!

[ http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/ ]
it is one of the stylish-ist blog i've ever encountered, with a combination
of SLR photography and high street fashion!

both which are something i lurrrvveee and i appreciate the art that come out of it!
well, if you don't know about me..i'm a science geek student. hardcore molecular sci.
but to have a balanced life so i don't end up looking like albert einstein, i also take time to
mingle with art and photography..although i have stopped painting and pencil sketching
ever since i've came to NUS..but i have never stop the passion for it! my prized works
are all stored in a container back at home..tee hee
since i've been eying the art shop at the highest level in takashimaya..garrhh
it's just to ex for the material to be sold there...someday this year i'm goin to learn something a new on oil painting on canvas or "ink blots" in colour! yummy~
we'll see..

i came upon the site i mentioned when i'm surfing some linked sites from vogue
absolutely great photographs and high technique shots on people walking
on the streets of paris, milan, new york. and oh boy
they really do dress well, and each individual has their own style and "story"
truly living in the coco chanel quote "Fashion fades, only style remains the same"..
love the coats and jackets and scarf..and how gorgeous the ladies of milan =)
you don't see such gorgeous-ness in singapore..haha

..LOL perhaps i should prepare myself for a delicious this: *whistle pee witt!*Nice little baby. You wait till may bank acct is sufficient ok....rolf..

this is absolutely a "just do it or die" month for me. jitters=S
wah kao. my shoulders never felt heavier.
i have written and going to write a whole list of deadlines.
and canceling few of the tasks..would mean a reward for me!
well..i always looked for a balance in life..all work and no play is a no-no for me..
so in all, i'm determine, bertekun and berusaha
to finish watever i set, so i can go down to jb to meet mummy this sat before she flies..
and watchman!

talking about mothers..last week i went home to visit my grandma
who has been "sick"telling us that she does not have the energy to walk.
the docs say she's fine. except for low lvl of osteoporosis.
today in class i finally understood her disease
when prof tan said about psychosomatic disorder.
it's all mental. really. i can see it. sigh.....
and such disorder are even more difficult to treat. and to face.
i just hope she's going to be fine, provided that the sons give her the attention that she yearns.
love.

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it has been such a pleasant quiet cold day..with light grey overhead clouds.
i have always love the rain. feels like they washed away all the troubles, and the haze of cuz..
love the fresh breeze after the rain =). and nothing beats from sitting at my fav corner
in science library, observing the great dark sky, the muggers, the so familiar smell, the books
the silence..
such simplicity do make wonders for me..yes, i wish i could rot here and never return to lab!
haha..

here's something i would like to dedicate to my best friend.
ps: even we couldn't get the jason mraz tics (sobz sobz!)..but still, u enjoy the song ya!
jia you in your lab!

" Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again...ohh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will"

20 months. and more to come. love.