girang

i am so so so tired. my diary is literary full of deadlines and experiments.
same goes to my other friends whose doing those cell/animal work.
i know, the stomach twisting you get when you view your data.
it is hard to juggle between work and study.
i seriously think they should just give a year of lab attachment.
without modules of cuz. what a waste of time. shurggghh.

deepavali! holidays! so my dear dr.winnie are you cmin home?
momo birthday leeeh!
sigh. i want to get her a puppy! cuz she's so lonely at home
when papi goes for some golf outing.
argh. but i think she gonna kill it
anytime soon if it poo on the sofa.
but i'm so broke right now. broke as in pok kai.
the lok kai mou qin mai min bao broke.
=(

ok..balik rumah this weekend! FINALLY!

Perjalanan jauh tak terasa
karna hatiku pun melonjak sama
ingin berjumpa dengan sanak saudara
yang selalu bermain dimata

Nun menghijau gunung, ladang dan rimba
Langit nan tinggi bertambah birunya
Deru angin sama turut berlaju
Semuanya bagaikan turut gembira

Balik kampuuung…
Oo.. balik kampung
Oo.. balik kampung, hati giraaannnngggg......+)
ambil duit dari mama dan papa..
ohh hati girang.......+)

weaving my thoughts

okay..so after thinking and thinking...
i have made the decision to pursue my graduate studies.
it is just a thought, not a conclusion yet.
i may work first as a research assistant/research tech/or whatever lab based
to shine up my resume. or i will just do my masters in nus first.
providing if i got the scholarship.
I DON'T WANT a phd from nus..
reason being i want to experience reasearch elsewhere.
i want to work with a different PI, different environment, people..
my thoughts is the united states would be the best place for biomedical sci.
and so i search and search the web for the uni that suits my taste.
CORNELL.
yes, the exact phd degree i would have dream of: immuno+micobio pathogenesis.
it is exactly what I'm doing right now.
it's like a calling.
I WANT TO STUDY in CORNELL.
and that is my aim.
i don't care how old I am, I just want to fulfill my aim and my interest.
and to pursue great science, at a great school, in a great city like NY.
and another VERY IMPORTANT reason
for choosing cornell is money.
money is not a problem as
"All students accepted to Ph.D. degree-granting programs are awarded a full tuition scholarship, which includes all tuition, tuition fees and health insurance costs. In addition to a full tuition scholarship, a generous graduate student stipend of $31,677 per annum "

so, this is a big step and challenge. and a big dream.
can i make it happen??????????

say what..

a hell of busy week with so many many many things to do.
in such a short period of time.
BUT at least moi darling is there for me.
so updates! happy belated anniversary..
we're supposed to go to the barracks at dampsey..
but suddenly lok tai yu
and i got a gum inflammation, which hurt so bad..
so we just walk around the place i used to work. raffles city.
speaking of inflammed gum, i went to see the yih dentist
whoa american chinese i think, or maybe she's a chinese
trying to be very ang moh.. but anyways
i had the scaling done on the spot. so lucky as i didn't have any appointment
and someone had canceled, so they just slot me in.
the scaling part was the most mentally traumatized process
i've ever encountered. i hate scaling.
i just shut my eyes, twist my toes, and scream li ren's name in my mind.
i even try to visualize the apoptosis mechanism to avoid the
buzzing sound in my mouth. freaking scary.
and blood was all over the place.
i think my gum is really in rip state.
ok, from today onwards, i shall brush my gum twice a day!
and rinse with the special mouthwash. argghhh.

just completed when dog fall in love with cat..
super touching that i cried in front of my laptop a few times..
sobz sobz.. i'm so goin to have a pet dog in future.
next!! moonlight resonance. time for some bitch fight.

arhh. i hate pharmacogenetics.